Every profession has professionals who have excellent qualifications in their craft. For Shaiden Rogue, that was the deepthroat. The German was a popular porn star for many years, her videos have up to 30 million views.
Hardly anyone in Europe was as successful on Pornhub and similar portals as she was, although the trained physiotherapist really only got into the industry through her ex, Shaiden says. It took years, a bitter breakup and a lot of alcohol before she realized: That’s not good for me.
Watson spoke to her about self-doubt, her ambivalent relationship with the adult world, and what 30 pounds more has to do with it.
You are basically a retired porn star. what are you doing all day
Shaiden villain: I spend time with my best friend and my partner and see what’s going on professionally, I’m on TikTok a lot. I’ll just let the next steps come to me. I’m lucky that money is still coming in from my old job, several thousand a month. At least this year I can still live well on this passive income.
Do old videos not get deleted or show up in search results?
Sure, but that can be delayed. For example, I recently got a message that my OnlyFans account would be frozen because I’m no longer uploading. Then I posted a picture of me dressed up and now it works again. I also have old videos that I still dig up and put on Pornhub. I take what is possible and if that stops, then so be it.
You were a star of the industry. Why the end?
I was doing all the porn at the time with my partner, who gave me the idea at the time. After the breakup, I thought, well, I have to reorganize myself now and see how I can continue on my own. This “reorganization” ended in half a year of excessive alcohol consumption and 15 pounds of weight gain. After that I didn’t feel good in my body anymore, so I wouldn’t have wanted to be filmed like that.
And then?
I wanted to lose weight and then rotate again. But when the alcohol stopped, I realized: I don’t want that anymore. In the meantime I had also met my new boyfriend (Note from the Red. Influencer Kevin «orangemorange»). I remember standing in front of Kevin when we were just dating and telling him, “I don’t think I want to do more porn, but I also feel like there’s nothing else I can do.”
can he comfort you?
He would have supported me too if I had stayed in the erotic world, but of course he didn’t say, “Keep doing that, I love it when you have fun with movie partners!” It would also have felt weird to me to have sex with another man. But the reason for the end was that I realized I was not doing well mentally. When the topic with the porn was over, I stopped drinking alcohol myself, nowadays there is a maximum of one glass of wine, not the whole bottle anymore. I just wasn’t happy. It only becomes clear to me afterwards.
What specifically bothered you?
I didn’t like the psychological pressure. I personally didn’t think money was that important, but my then partner sometimes suggested to me that it was important to break through this or that figure, earn 2000 euros more per month, that I should slowly start posting something new.
Your path in the industry started with a man and ended with a man. That is striking.
I certainly give a lot in relationships. The image I gave to the outside world is pretty wrong in that regard, but I knew the wild bitch sold better, and that kept people busy.
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If you turn an activity into a profession, there is always the danger that you no longer feel like it in your private life. Even with porn actors?
I’ve heard of couples producing content together and who at one point got so into their movie that, even if they got the urge in private, they immediately thought, OK, now let’s take the chance and keep the camera on it. This is a bad thing. If sex is always making money in the back of your mind, it can’t be good for a relationship. I was immune to that because I wanted my films to be properly exposed and styled, that wouldn’t have worked at all.
Do you regret your work as a porn star?
There is not a single video I regret. But sometimes I wonder if I would have slipped into the industry without my ex-boyfriend… But these are mind games that lead nowhere. Since the porn industry also made me make a lot of money and can live on it today, I don’t regret it. I wouldn’t know where I would be today if I hadn’t. Perhaps I would have been happy in a different profession – or just a very irritated physical therapist.
This ambivalence fits with the fact that you once said: the porn industry should not be demonized, but neither should it be left uncritical. what are you criticizing?
That many women come in naively. Anyone who plays with the idea can contact me for advice. Because if you look at platforms like MyDirtyHobby, for example, a good twenty newcomers appear every week and not everyone becomes a star. Such a profile is created quickly, it takes a few minutes, and many girls think that it is very easy to get money there. But what many don’t think about: Yes, the demand is great. But so does the offer.
That means?
Most of these women are disappointed. Very young-looking girls are often specifically approached by ‘talent scouts’ on Insta and Tiktok if they don’t want to switch to sex portals. Then finally you have to ask yourself: why is it coming at me?
According to which schedule are the women addressed?
If you look very young, underage, you are a hit and you are more likely to be successful. But that, of course, means that men over 40 get turned on by the fact that you look like the neighbor’s daughter. You can leave it that way, but maybe you should think about it: does that bother me? Is it okay if I act on these kinds of fantasies?
Interesting that you say that because your “working age” is also 18, isn’t it?
If you’re still turning 18 at 21, take advantage of that because that means more clicks. I did it like many others. It’s now a running gag for me when I say I’m “still 18”.
If you decide, “I want to go back to physical therapy now and remove all porn.” Is that possible?
Sure, I can delete all my accounts and videos and they’ll be gone for now. But there can always be people who steal videos and upload them somewhere else. It’s like parents are always preaching: the Internet never forgets. I think that’s okay and would feel like a liar to deny this part of my life. But a young professional who may have shot two videos and then stops again may never lose these nudes, either privately or in professional life.
How many views has your most successful video had?
30 million or so. I think there are over 350 million views in total on Pornhub.
30 million! That’s 400 alliance arenas full of people watching you suck.
Yes, it’s great. You can’t even visualize it.
That only works because images behind the screen are abstract, right? Live in a stadium that would certainly have felt strange.
I don’t think I would have found that strange at the time. The truth is, it’s somehow more embarrassing to do something like that in front of ten people than in front of hundreds of thousands – after all, they’d just be little heads that you wouldn’t recognize. Maybe that’s an idea, it would certainly work, I’ll pass it on (laughs). But as an actress I wouldn’t be an option anymore, I’d rather do the moderation now.
Source: Blick
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